If you try to call me.
The call will remain unanswered.
And even if we sometimes dream about us meeting each other.
The love will only consume us in our dream state.
We are separated by many light years.
Because you are my lover from a past life.
M.P.Yasmine
What we see
Let’s drive for hours.
Between waterfalls and mountains.
Let beams of our star reach our car.
And smell fields filled with wild flowers.
M.P.Yasmine
The new me
When I think about the old me.
I have a lump in my throat.
A pull on my heart strings.
Sometimes I miss her.
The good laugh, the numbness.
and all that she couldn’t see.
M.P.Yasmine
Live
”Sometimes you have to let blood relatives die,
so you can live.”
M.P.Yasmine
Life
The urge.
The itch.
Scratching layer after layer.
I’m angry and totally sick of it.
Punching the ball of rage.
Blunt, bruised and blackened.
Through healing I’m bleeding.
I cry oceans from grief.
So I can swim my way to freedom.
And one day be weightless.
No urge, no itch.
Featherlight and fly.
Living my life.
M.P.Yasmine
Balance
The sound of life seems out of balance.
It is shallow.
An obscure silence in music.
An absence of existence.
Nothing in everything.
But when the sound of life strikes me.
It is overwhelmingly heavy.
Bright colors in vast darkness.
Tears filling pools as huge as the universe.
Everything in nothing.
M.P.Yasmine
Space
Bruises cover my legs.
I’m bumping into life straight ahead.
Tables and cabinets I do not see standing.
my vessel stumbles in to taking her space.
I even stomped my foot on something stubborn.
It left me purple and doubting.
Reclaiming your space can be scary and hurting.
M.P.Yasmine
Good days
The good days have come.
Sunrise in my eyes.
Love light beams reflect on my skin.
Voices from around the world entering my mind.
Laughter loud together.
For more good days will come.
M.P.Yasmine
No.7 II
Written and read, so you will not forget.
That I would live on rhythmic sounds.
Touching, tragic, jovial and timeless.
Play this musical movement.
When death has collected my debt.
M.P.Yasmine
Stockholm
I knew this girl.
I knew her well.
I lived with her broken spirit for quite some time.
And with her judgement many more years.
Sadly she never got the chance to meet me.
Only the version of me she was told I would be.
Now she lives in Stockholm.
Once in a while I feel the urge to bring her home.
But then I think clearly again,
With the authenticity of my blooming soul,
That she will never be able to see.
Without knowing the real me.
Without my judgement.
For her Stockholm is the place to be.
M.P.Yasmine
Debt of time
I can’t imagine living without the debt of time.
Not caring or daring to waste it all and let go by.
But the fear of dropping dead.
Makes living with time a nightmare.
And brings shivers down my spine when planning my life ahead.
M.P.Yasmine
Blossom tree park
Pink blossom catching my eye.
Flourishing in small beams of sunlight.
The trees wake up underneath the cold sky.
Girls with horses, photographers and couples early in love.
In spring I see them all come by.
M.P.Yasmine
Doors
“Growth is closing doors and open new ones by yourself.”
M.P.Yasmine
Emotional abuse
“It doesn’t matter if I’m skinny or fat. My body always feels like a vessel of short term happiness. I’m sick of it.”
M.P.Yasmine
Thoughts
When living beings could no longer heal.
No pills could cure diseases.
The pain and misery could not go away.
Only be given or taken.
Who would you be?
The giver or taker?
M.P.Yasmine
Death Letter
With each decision I make for the better.
I’m rewriting my existence.
Reprogramming my being.
All that was fades away.
Saying goodbye to you and me.
All written down on this dead letter.
M.P.Yasmine
She
Receiving paper and gift.
Covered with her warm heartbeat.
Layers of love, pain and her life.
Written down on paper by this beautiful gift.
M.P.Yasmine
Irrelevant
”Once you truly see and build immunity for toxic family members and their scared crew with their herd loyalty, you instantly lose respect for them all.”
M.P.Yasmine
The Opportunity
”I’m selling each cell of my old body.
The old me.
And not even to the highest bidder.”
M.P.Yasmine
Eyes
“I have a new pair of eyes. They love to weep a little more lately of all the beauty they’re able to see.”
M.P.Yasmine
Books
”I’m constantly buying books for the wrong time.
And the one I truly need to discover the why and the when,
I’m not buying.
All undiscovered.”
M.P.Yasmine
Heaven
The day I fall into this pool of fresh air,
Sunken in this soft layer of life.
Will be the day,
I cherish my life the most.
But I hope keeping my eyes on my beloved atmosphere,
Will remind me each day heaven is already here.
M.P.Yasmine
Growth
“I’m dating boundaries and I can’t wait to get married.”
M.P.Yasmine
Happiness
”It is truly a challenge for someone with anxiety to create opportunities for long term happiness.
Don’t let it stop you from trying.”
M.P.Yasmine
Hunger
When I let hunger sink in.
The melody of life stops playing.
And sometimes I can’t stand the sound of life.
So I starve myself in silence.