More than Ever

My past is living inside me.
And I’m ready more than ever.
To pour it all out.
Even if I have to spill out my entire guts.

M.P.Yasmine

Earth

Earth must be wonderful.
Looking at it from above.
In the stillness of masses.
The perfect balance between chaos and serenity.

M.P.Yasmine

Feathers

Finally she came to the conclusion.
She didn’t want what she wanted.
Wisdom fell right into her lap.
And now she covers her lap with small feathers of discipline.

M.P.Yasmine

Heaven

The day I fall into this pool of fresh air,
Sunken in this soft layer of life.
Will be the day,
I cherish my life the most.
But I hope keeping my eyes on my beloved atmosphere,
Will remind me each day heaven is already here.

M.P.Yasmine

Growth

“I’m dating boundaries and I can’t wait to get married.”

M.P.Yasmine

Moon

I’m washing away my pain with Moon water.
Let placebo take me over.
Moons soft light shining down on my wounds.
My tears taken by tides of gravity.

M.P.Yasmine

Rose Garden

In my garden with beautiful Roses.
You can see Snow White blossoming as the solid soul she is.
Marie in the front filling your nostrils with her sweetness.
Lady of Nostalgia showing her exquisite beauty.
And in the middle of my Rose garden you see a Willow,
Being a Willow.

M.P.Yasmine

Clouds

The ground shakes beneath my bare feet.
Blades of grass tickle my toes.
I look up to see the comforting sky.
My mind falls back into ease.
As I watch gently giants slowly go by.

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Panic Attack

Many sensations coming through.
My legs shaking steady.
Thank God for gravity.
My heart racing immensely past his place.
Like a train derailing disastrous.
My breathing stops.
Swallowing I must have forgotten how to.
A terrorized child I am.
Closing up completely for all input.
Each vital sense no longer working.
My body in freeze and my mind running.
I think I’m dying today.
Again.

M.P.Yasmine

Dandelion

The sun reflected in its existence.
A joyful presence blooming in the meadow.
When time is right it sings in the wind.
And sometimes blown by a lucky child with beautiful wishes.

M.P.Yasmine

Ours

We leave behind the sunny hours.
The evening arrives in a gentle hurry.
Stars may appear at the sky and even in your eyes.
The moon is watching over us.
Keeping us safe and in melancholic light.
All belonging to nature but tonight it is ours.

M.P.Yasmine

Thoughts

”Isn’t it incredible that we are able to leave something behind in total freedom.
Yet we often stick around as if we are prisoners.
Powerless and captured by our own thoughts.”

M.P.Yasmine

Universe

Sometimes the moon hits me on my face.
While clouds smother me.
Shooting stars scratch my itchy skin.
And being present on Earth kills me.

M.P.Yasmine

Dysfunctional families

”Generational trauma in dysfunctional families is a real thing.
And I hope there will be at least one person in each generation who breaks the cycle.”

M.P.Yasmine

Children

”The day I saw death creeping in on my father, I saw a lost child lying in bed yearning for his mom and dad.
Since that day I see children everywhere.
Lost children.”

M.P.Yasmine

Survival Mode

My body in agony.
My mind in ruins.
My senses spiraling out of control.
Frantically about everything.
I need a good sleep.
Deep sleep.
Reset.

I forgive you

I wish i could scream from the top of my lungs that I have forgiven them.
So even my dreams that haunt me at night could hear me.
Frightful whimpers wake me up each night.
The dead still much alive.
Haunting me, hurting me.
My hand covers my mouth.
I softly speak…

M.P.Yasmine

Walk along

When words mean nothing no more.
After life treated you the worst.
Leave them all behind without telling.
Don’t you dare shed one more tear.
In this river of misery those people are thirsty for.

M.P.Yasmine

Cigarette

”After 24 years smoking,
quitting brought me in this nonexistent deep void filled with sorrow and grief.
Each morning I decide if I have the strength to climb out of it.”

M.P.Yasmine

Growth

”Before, everything was in silence.
My pain and the cracks in my heart.
After, there was life and more than my own life.”

M.P.Yasmine

Mental Health

”Sometimes I recharge myself by unplugging the doorbell and sleep all day on a mattress between 2 couches.”

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Father

”I trusted the Grim Reaper so much,
I slept on a bed right next to Death.”

M.P.Yasmine

And sleep

Regulate slow breathing.
Eyes shut, fake sleeping.
Drinking and eating.
A little bit of feelings dealing.
Impossible dreaming.
6 am coffee and me.

M.P.Yasmine

Alive

Your mind in senses.
Swimming through inspiration.
Wow is all around you.
Move mountains with the tip of your fingers.
Breathe.
Alive you are.

M.P.Yasmine